A Productive Day...So Far

I woke up this morning feeling down in the dumps and sorry for myself. I also had several dreams last night and every one of them had to do with vaginas in one form or another; I know, how many forms can they possibly take on :) Anyway, I have no idea what to make of that, so we'll just move on.

After a bit of just laying in bed, I decided to get up and work out. I did 100 ab crunches and ran for half an hour. I felt such a relief it was amazing. I cried for about five minutes while on the treadmill, but that was because one particular song came on that brought back a flood of emotions. But after that past, I felt a new sense of strength that I have not felt in weeks, maybe even months. I proceeded to work on my CV and updating all my information. I also cleaned the house and worked on cleaning up files on my computer here.

I have not made any decisions about my future, but today I feel like I may be at the beginning stages of having some clarity about what I want and how to get it.

In other news, I will be leaving in a few hours to spend a long weekend in Madison, reconnecting with friends and trying to put some space in between my sadness and what life should actually be all about. I hope to have regular access to a computer while I am away in order to keep up-to-date with my blog, but if I don't, I will write all about it when I return on Sunday.

To end this post, here is the song that I have been listening to all day so far, which I think has helped my mood and given me my new sense of strength.

Sing ~ Wynonna

Its in the wind
Noise and steam
‘neath your skin
And in your dream
It’s who you are
It’s how you feel
A guiding star
Your driving wheel

Sing
(Let it take you
Let it make you
Never break you down)
Sing
(Let it mold you
Let it make you bold
And never hold you down)
Sing
Sing, your heart out

Its on the street
The neon glare
The hard concrete
The cold night air
Its in your voice
The way you sound
Have no choice
But come unwound

Sing
(Your songs of truth and pain
All the things you can’t explain)
Sing
(The way you feel inside
Let the music be your guide)
Sing, your heart out

Sing it like you hear it
Like you have no need to fear it now
Sing it like you know it
Like you’re not afraid to show us how
Sing from somewhere way down deep
Sing and make the angels weep
Sing and open heaven’s door
Sing ‘til you can’t sing no more

Sing
(Your songs of dark and light
Make your mark with all your might)
Sing
(Your songs of hope and fear
Sing the song that sent you hear)
Sing, your heart out
Sing
Sing
Sing, your heart out
Sing
Sing, your heart out