A Glimpse Into My Psyche

I have been known to have some pretty vivid dreams and for a few years I had my dreams analyzed. It was very interesting and also provided more insight into my thinking. In school I took classes on how to interpret dreams and would also do some of this with my clients. That being said, my dreams last night were very interesting and I think captures some of what I have been feeling as of late. So, let's begin.

My first dream involved me logging onto my bank account on the computer only to find out that someone had cleared out all my money from my bank in Chicago. In my dream I was quite angry that the bank didn't notify (call) me that this was happening. I thought about identity theft and wondered what else was happening with my name, credit, etc. I was abruptly woken up around 2am to my phone ringing. My initial thought was, "Oh my God, this is the bank calling about my account; it wasn't a dream after all!" I did not get up to get the phone as I was too scared that all of this was real and not a dream.

My second dream entailed me living in Germany with Carsten and having three friends come to visit me. The three friends in real life are people I went to school with in Chicago; however, we are no longer friends. In my dream Carsten informed me that he wanted a divorce and that I was to move out immediately. He said, "I've found someone else and have no more use for you." I started crying and ran to my friends, who were out shopping in the city. One of the friends held me and told me "Well, I never liked him anyway and I knew this would happen." In my dream I was upset about "wasting my time in Germany" and that by moving here I had "sealed my financial death." I had no means to get back to the US and the last part I remember from the dream was walking around aimlessly here in Freiburg.

So, it;s not even 7am yet and this is how my day is starting. To make matters worse, the yellow mucous is back and my throat is worse now than before. I am running low on medication, but I think once Carsten gets back I might have to bite the bullet and go to a doctor.