Stay in bed, forget the rest

That was basically my motto for much of Thursday. I wonder if I should have stayed in Baraboo a couple more days before coming down to Courtney's place. In Baraboo I can walk around to distract myself, out here I am really just more isolated than I think I need to be. As such, after my last blog entry on Thursday I proceeded to spend the rest of the day either in bed or up doing crunches on the yoga ball. At one point during the day I decided to weigh myself again and the scale here said 178 pounds, though I find that hard to believe. My friend Alica phoned me, and we talked for about an hours, the whole time I was laying in bed under the covers. Courtney's dog Buddy never left my side! Even while I lay in bed crying and while sitting on the couch in tears, he was on my lap staring at me.

Once Courtney and Hailey arrived home, we ate dinner and I helped Hailey with her homework. She did really quite well, though she also gets frustrated easily. She is a bundle of energy and some how Courtney manages to stay calm through it all. Anyway, after dinner we made homemade banana bread and then Hailey read me a story before she went off to bed.

Now it is Friday morning and I slept horrible last night. My mind was racing for much of the night. The last time I looked at the clock it was 4:25am and I couldn't seem to turn off my thinking. Once I did fall asleep I dreamt I was in Baraboo, calling an attorney in Germany and speaking fluent German. Of course when I woke up I started saying some of the words from my dream, as I miss speaking German and going to my Integration Course.